Broken Hearted Joy – Pastor’s Review

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“Broken Hearted Joy”

by Raymond Mowla


“Thank you so very, very much for this testimony, Broken Hearted Joy – by Raymond Mowla. I was thirty years old when I began to have all the experiences with the living God, His Son, and the Holy Spirit that Mr. Mowla experienced. I am now seventy-five years old, having lived with God all the years since my powerful encounter. 

Reading his testimony has brought back all the power of those early moments. Since then, I have gone to seminary, been a missionary to foreign countries, served as a pastor for twenty-five years, and taught many years in Christian schools where I was free to share the wonders of knowing God and His love with my students. Thank you for letting me relive those showers of blessings of the beginning.”

– Pastor Garnett


Every journey to the cross is different, but we all gain valuable insights through our unique travels that are intended to be shared to teach and remind each new generation that there is a God of hope who is still powerfully and actively at work in the business of salvation and redemption!

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Broken Hearted Joy – Available Now!

Guardian Publishing Presents

Broken Hearted Joy

by Raymond Mowla

“On my pilgrimage to discover the truth about God, I never imagined that sex, drugs, alcohol, and violence to the point of attempted murder would ever be the means that God would use to bring this searching soul to seek a Savior!”

– Raymond Mowla


Raymond Mowla was born in Mississauga Ontario; the middle child in a professing Muslim family of five. It is through this unique vantage point that he relates his personal struggles of life and religion that would bring him to profess his own faith in Jesus Christ as Lord just before the age of thirty.

Evangelist, Apologist, and Minister of the Gospel, now his life’s sole ambition is to see people come into a loving relationship with God the Father through His Son Jesus Christ.

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by Stephen the Levite

Verse 1

This is for my back-packers who hate the crap they play on the radio
All of it is garbage they calling it entertainment though
Boobs, booties and booze, fools spewing the lamest flows
No respect or etiquette ethics are situational

I remember listening mimicking in the age of gold
Hip hoppers who taught and brought me back to the days of old
It was retrospective respecting the heads who came before
Cats who battled for status rapping before their names were known

Started in the parks in the Bronx with parties and crazy shows
Crowds wowed by the styles wildin’ shouting and saying “Ho!”
Innovators made it amazing changing the way we flow
Turning turntables from players to something playable

Nowadays we’re labeled as haters because we hate the flows
Skills have taken a chill to make a mill for some shady folk
DJs are eliminated from the equation so
Mix-tapes are mistakes a generation has labeled wrong

Rappers battle without a track to back it or make it dope
More like poet with jokes you know they wrote it some days ago
If you’re spitting a written just admit it and make it known
Don’t mislabel or fake it take it the way you take it homes

I am sure there’s more deplorable horrible ways to show
Disrespect and disconnection from heads that have made the culture
Giving into the industry in the name of making dough
Ditching definitions traditions gave us to make your own

Folks who don’t even know the culture control the way it’s going
Saying school is for fools and do the music the way you’re told
Make absurdity circulate and perpetuate the clones
All the slaves are afraid they won’t get paid if they break the mold

All that’s under the sun has been done a bunch of ways before
History is repeated frequently you can trace it bro
Young bucks who buck against wisdom written in ancient scrolls
One in particular we should consider is Rehoboam


Verse 2

Following his father Solomon in line to take the throne
Heads met him in Shechem requesting rest for their aching bones
Didn’t listen to the wisdom he’s given forsaking the old
Traded it to obey the peers he played with at eight years old

Instead of blessing them he’s threatening them with a weighty load
Scorpions for the insubordinate or the lazy folk
They retort reporting they have no portion in David’s home
After that they attack the task master who’s slain with stones

They divide like Ahijah prophesied in the reign before
Jeroboam is over most of them he’s a hater though
Every kid that sits in his throne is wicked and can’t be told
One rebellion begets a plethora separating homes

These are the dangers that our generation is facing bro
A legacy can be spread or end with me if I make it so
We be making the same mistakes and say we can change the globe
Change is probably our biggest problem that needs to change the most

Make the bigger decision quicker than we can change our clothes
Peers cheering us on steer us wrong “whatchu waiting for?”
Old heads who know better tell us to take it slow
We dismiss what they’re pitching tripping saying “they ain’t Jehovah”

We be trying to justify our defiance with names and quotes
Even blaming Lecrae when that ain’t what he was saying though
Even I with “To Die Is Gain” I feel like I played a role
Fueling revolutionist with a truth they had taken wrong

The commission depends on the submission of baby souls
How you gonna train up a child that’s not even trainable
Just a couple years in the faith and babies will say they’re grown
Just because they studied a bunch of books they would say they know

But maturity’s more than reading more of these saints of old
It’s putting to practice the stuff you scratch when you’re taking notes
Living it consistently with some length being faithful bro
When someone who is gives you wisdom, remember


Rehoboam went to Shechem, for all Israel had gone there to make him king. When Jeroboam son of Nebat heard this (he was still in Egypt, where he had fled from King Solomon), he returned from

Egypt. So they sent for Jeroboam, and he and the whole assembly of Israel went to Rehoboam and said to him: “Your father put a heavy yoke on us, but now lighten the harsh labor and the heavy yoke he put on us, and we will serve you.”

Rehoboam answered, “Go away for three days and then come back to me.” So the people went away.

Then King Rehoboam consulted the elders who had served his father Solomon during his lifetime. “How would you advise me to answer these people?” he asked.

They replied, “If today you will be a servant to these people and serve them and give them a favorable answer, they will always be your servants.”

But Rehoboam rejected the advice the elders gave him and consulted the young men who had grown up with him and were serving him. He asked them, “What is your advice? How should we answer these people who say to me, ‘Lighten the yoke your father put on us’?”

The young men who had grown up with him replied, “These people have said to you, ‘Your father put a heavy yoke on us, but make our yoke lighter.’ Now tell them, ‘My little finger is thicker than my father’s waist. My father laid on you a heavy yoke; I will make it even heavier. My father scourged you with whips; I will scourge you with scorpions.’”

Three days later Jeroboam and all the people returned to Rehoboam, as the king had said, “Come back to me in three days.” The king answered the people harshly. Rejecting the advice given him by the elders, he followed the advice of the young men and said, “My father made your yoke heavy; I will make it even heavier. My father scourged you with whips; I will scourge you with scorpions.” So the king did not listen to the people, for this turn of events was from the Lord, to fulfill the word the Lord had spoken to Jeroboam son of Nebat through Ahijah the Shilonite.

When all Israel saw that the king refused to listen to them, they answered the king:

“What share do we have in David,
what part in Jesse’s son?
To your tents, Israel!
Look after your own house, David!”

So the Israelites went home. But as for the Israelites who were living in the towns of Judah, Rehoboam still ruled over them.

King Rehoboam sent out Adoniram,

who was in charge of forced labor, but all Israel stoned him to death. King Rehoboam, however, managed to get into his chariot and escape to Jerusalem. So Israel has been in rebellion against the house of David to this day.

When all the Israelites heard that Jeroboam had returned, they sent and called him to the assembly and made him king over all Israel. Only the tribe of Judah remained loyal to the house of David.

When Rehoboam arrived in Jerusalem, he mustered all Judah and the tribe of Benjamin—a hundred and eighty thousand able young men—to go to war against Israel and to regain the kingdom for Rehoboam son of Solomon.

But this word of God came to Shemaiah the man of God: “Say to Rehoboam son of Solomon king of Judah, to all Judah and Benjamin, and to the rest of the people. ‘This is what the Lord says: Do not go up to fight against your brothers, the Israelites. Go home, every one of you, for this is my doing.’” So they obeyed the word of the Lord and went home again, as the Lord had ordered.
1 Kings 12


Trust JESUS!





How Do I Get Free From Fear

The apostle John wrote:

“There is no fear in love, but perfect love drives out fear. because fear has to do with punishment, and the one fearing has not been perfected in love”
1 John 4:18

The main cause of fear is an excessive concern about one’s self: self-preservation, self-image, what the future holds for one’s ‘self’. Those feelings may not be on the surface, but they are the real cause of fear. If a person is filled with love for someone else, then the focus is away from self and on the other person. The perfect love that comes from Christ should fill our lives. As it does, it crowds out all fear.

There are many kinds of fear. We have different scientific names for them. Some people fear the dark. Some are afraid to go outside. Some fear other people. Others are afraid to be shut up in closed spaces. Some fear heights. Some people have a fear of tunnels. Some are afraid of snakes. Some fear is submerged in the subconscious and manifests itself in psycho-somatic illness, ulcers, headaches, depression, or even paralysis.

Knowledge and experience can help us overcome fear. It seems that we tend to fear the unknown and are comfortable with the familiar. Therefore, people who fear should be gradually exposed in a non-threatening context to the object of their fear.

Even as fear tends to inhibit action and bring paralysis, in like manner, action tends to dispel fear. The psalmist discovered one great weapon against fear when he wrote,

“The Lord is my shepherd … I will fear no evil”
Psalm 23:1,4

We should remind ourselves over and over that God is all-powerful and that His protection is sufficient for any need.

There is a healthy sort of fear. Like an instinctual fear of fire, electricity, lightning, bullets, & bankruptcy, I think the better word would be to “respect the attributes” of these things, but not fear them. God placed within man a beneficial mobilization technique triggered by fear that marshals his responses in times of danger or need.

But in his letter to the Philippian church, the Apostle Paul writes boldly regarding the true perspective we should grow to adapt:

In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus:

Who, being in very nature God,
    did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage;

rather, he made himself nothing
    by taking the very nature

of a servant,
    being made in human likeness.

And being found in appearance as a man,
    he humbled himself
    by becoming obedient to death—
   even death on a cross!

Therefore God exalted him to the highest place
    and gave him the name that is above every name,

that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
    in heaven and on earth and under the earth,

and every tongue acknowledge that Jesus Christ is Lord,
    to the glory of God the Father.
Philippians 2:5-11

If in our hearts, we revere Christ as Lord, and truly believe that just as He overcame even death, (which is the very root of every fear for self preservation) and was resurrected, that we too shall be raised to reign with Him, then meditating on these things will give us a far more profound sense of our call and duty in this temporary human existence that we fight so anxiously to preserve – to the point of fear.

On the other hand, we must also recognize that some extremes of fear are totally false and may be induced by demons. In these cases, spirits of fear need to be commanded to depart in the name of Jesus.

Perfect love casts out fear. The Word of God sets people free. The person who is victimized by fear should focus on Jesus, on His love, on His power, and should memorize and recite the Word of God, zeroing in on those promises that deal with the hope Christians have in Christ!



Here are a few to encourage your faith:

Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age”
Matthew 28:20

But the Lord is faithful, he will strengthen you and guard you from the evil one
2 Thessalonians 3:3



Praising the Lord is an excellent antidote to fear. Not only does this rebuke the spirit of fear and Satan who brings it, but it also brings the Christian into the direct presence of God. The psalmist tells us that God inhabits the praises of His people.

My God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer,

by night, but I find no rest.

Yet you are enthroned as the Holy One;

You are the one Israel praises.

In you our ancestors put their trust;

they trusted and you delivered them.

To you they cried out and were saved;

in you they trusted and were not put to shame.

Psalm 22:2-5


We can bind Satan’s power by praise. Out of praise, we will find deliverance from all our fears.


Trust JESUS!





Blessed in the Name of Lord Jesus!

“My soul magnifies the Lord,
and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior,
for he has looked on the humble estate of his servant.

For behold, from now on all generations will call me blessed;
for he who is mighty has done great things for me,

and holy is his name.
And his mercy is for those who fear him

from generation to generation.
He has shown strength with his arm;

he has scattered the proud in the thoughts of their hearts;
he has brought down the mighty from their thrones

and exalted those of humble estate;
he has filled the hungry with good things,

and the rich he has sent away empty.
He has helped his servant Israel,

in remembrance of his mercy,
as he spoke to our fathers,

to Abraham and to his offspring forever.”
Luke 1:46-55

Mary, the mother of Jesus greatly rejoiced at the mere thought that she would be the vessel from which the Blessed Messiah would one day enter the physical world in the form of a child.

She bursts out with praises to her cousin Elizabeth.

How much more reason should believers who are forgiven by the blood shed on the cross and in-filled with the Spirit of the True and Living God find to rejoice?


My dear children, for whom I am again in the pains of childbirth until Christ is formed in you…
Galatians 4:19


Trust JESUS!


Friedrich Schwartz – O Sacred Heart

O sacred Head, now wounded, with grief and shame weighed down,
Now scornfully surrounded with thorns, Thine only crown;
O sacred Head, what glory, what bliss till now was Thine!
Yet, though despised and gory, I joy to call Thee mine.

What Thou, my Lord, hast suffered, was all for sinners’ gain;
Mine, mine was the transgression, but Thine the deadly pain.
Lo, here I fall, my Savior! ’Tis I deserve Thy place;
Look on me with Thy favor, vouchsafe to me Thy grace.

Men mock and taunt and jeer Thee, Thou noble countenance,
Though mighty worlds shall fear Thee and flee before Thy glance.
How art thou pale with anguish, with sore abuse and scorn!
How doth Thy visage languish that once was bright as morn!

Now from Thy cheeks has vanished their color once so fair;
From Thy red lips is banished the splendor that was there.
Grim death, with cruel rigor, hath robbed Thee of Thy life;
Thus Thou hast lost Thy vigor, Thy strength in this sad strife.

My burden in Thy Passion, Lord, Thou hast borne for me,
For it was my transgression which brought this woe on Thee.
I cast me down before Thee, wrath were my rightful lot;
Have mercy, I implore Thee; Redeemer, spurn me not!

What language shall I borrow to thank Thee, dearest friend,
For this Thy dying sorrow, Thy pity without end?
O make me Thine forever, and should I fainting be,
Lord, let me never, never outlive my love to Thee.

My Shepherd, now receive me; my Guardian, own me Thine.
Great blessings Thou didst give me, O source of gifts divine.
Thy lips have often fed me with words of truth and love;
Thy Spirit oft hath led me to heavenly joys above.

Here I will stand beside Thee, from Thee I will not part;
O Savior, do not chide me! When breaks Thy loving heart,
When soul and body languish in death’s cold, cruel grasp,
Then, in Thy deepest anguish, Thee in mine arms I’ll clasp.

The joy can never be spoken, above all joys beside,
When in Thy body broken I thus with safety hide.
O Lord of Life, desiring Thy glory now to see,
Beside Thy cross expiring, I’d breathe my soul to Thee.

My Savior, be Thou near me when death is at my door;
Then let Thy presence cheer me, forsake me nevermore!
When soul and body languish, oh, leave me not alone,
But take away mine anguish by virtue of Thine own!

Be Thou my consolation, my shield when I must die;
Remind me of Thy passion when my last hour draws nigh.
Mine eyes shall then behold Thee, upon Thy cross shall dwell,
My heart by faith enfolds Thee. Who dieth thus dies well.